Have you ever sat with heartbreak many moons overdue?

Have you ever sat with heartbreak many moons over due?

Felt like your heart was aching beyond comprehension while

reliving past experiences, remembering time spent and with who.

Imagining where you’d be today if you had said “b” instead of “a”, gone ‘left’ instead of ‘right’.

Retracing the moments that led up to what changed life in an instant

Understanding that, that was then and this, this is now

This is where you’ve always been meant to be, your destiny

Nothing can ever erase the history of memories — places, people and pain leave their mark forever.

Have you ever sat with heartbreak many moons over due?

Knowing what you know now, not what you bet you did then

Having conversations replay that should’ve went a different way

But instead you’re still rehearsing

how it’ll play out in your mind

Finally striking up the courage to say all that you wanted but didn’t at the time

Only you’ll ever know there are bits of your existence that wish to go back to before present became the past

To when you thought you knew it all

And you thought you wouldn’t miss it

Or you thought it was the right decision

Only you’ll ever know the confusion that washes over your thoughts from time to time

That catch you off guard

That flirts with destiny to change the course ahead

That leaves all to imagination, some to desire and none to reality

Have you ever sat with heartbreak many moons over due?

The ultimate fact of it is this:

This I know to be true

There are memories surging through me

Of you

— andreana.nic